I should’ve known that someone who felt like electricity would’ve left me burned out.
Month: September 2022
Transformation of Aggravation
It’s okay to feel unhappy, but it isn’t okay to spew venom filled words and make others feel sickly due to the negativity you let fester because of your hatred of your own life.
It’s okay to feel unhappy but it’s important to understand what fertilizes bright thoughts to grow out of you like lustrous spring meadows. Nurture your small, internal gardens and diligently weed the poisonous thoughts out.
It’s okay to feel unhappy, it’s always okay to feel unhappy, but remember the only person who can create happiness for you, is you.
It’s like talking to walls.
What else is there to know, or say?
What else could I possibly mumble or spit into this void that I haven’t already screamed so many times in the past?
How else do I word that I’m a failure, an inadequacy in this life, a speck of a mistake tainting this world.
How else do I tell my loved ones that I yearn to leave, and that I dream about not belonging here?
“I didn’t think I’d make it this far,” I say
“But you did! You’ve accomplished so much,” they reply
“I meant my age, not my achievements,” I think but I never say.
Heart on a Canvas 