It’s been a while.
Hard to find the words when the world’s gone so cold.
Hard to express what’s inside,
give you the right words,
what you deserve.
Hard to beat back the dark cloud,
anxiety lightning strikes
making my ears ring
I can’t hear what you’re saying
rain pouring over my already-tear-stained cheeks
hard to grasp reality
steam rises from the pavement bringing heat to my face and head
can’t catch my breath
can’t find the words to express myself.
Difficult to move,
immobilized but still shaking,
pleading with my lungs to breathe,
mirroring your calm demeanor.
I feel like the monster.
-I love you. Why did you do what you did?
Heart on a Canvas 